I recently turned 21. I live in a small town in Tennessee and I spent the last two summers in Alaska. Since I'm starting back to school this fall I'm spending the summer at home (boo) to save up some extra cash. I'm writing this for a reason. Normally, I'm not the kinda"Hey, lets have a look at my personal life!" person but I decided to try something new. So here it is. I'm 21 and I've never had a boyfriend. I'm not obese or paper thin. I'm normal. I'm told I'm pretty on a regular basis. What am I doing wrong? I've been on dates. Sure. Apparently I scare them away or they scare me away within the first couple of dates. My friends date. Hell, my best friend dates several guys at once and here I am, freakishly single. I don't understand.
Days before my birthday I had a minor spaz attack. I come in and sit down with my mom and ask, "Am I ugly and I just don't know it? Do you think ugly people know they're ugly? If I had something wrong with me you would tell me right?" I have perfect vision. My mother is looking at me as though I've lost my mind. I continue on, "What's wrong with me? I'm 21 years old and I've never had a boyfriend. If I'm not deformed please tell me what I'm doing wrong."
Am I going to end up 25 years old and have never been in a relationship? I'm not one of those boy-crazy girls or one of those females that thinks they need a man to be complete (thank god, otherwise I'd seriously be screwed) but Lord, you can only handle always being the third wheel, the odd man out, the dateless wonder, the lonely single freak.. for so long. I personally feel I've handled it well thus far.
Maybe it's just me? Maybe it's because some people don't know how to take me sometimes?I'm witty, blunt, and a little outspoken. I'm a little bit of a smart ass but it's all in good fun. I get a tiny bit rowdy when I drink too much and maybe I talk about my family too much, but that's only because I love them. I'm not very forgiving and I can't dance but I have good sides too. I love to hike and read. I'm willing to go anywhere, if I can afford a plane ticket then I will just make the rest of it up as I go. I'm great at encouraging people and getting them to conquer their fears even if it involves me getting on big scary roller coasters that I hate. I love trying new things and I can hold a conversation...
I'm not writing this to get a boyfriend (or even a date) but more so to figure out what I'm doing wrong. I just don't understand.
Thanks for any feedback.
Days before my birthday I had a minor spaz attack. I come in and sit down with my mom and ask, "Am I ugly and I just don't know it? Do you think ugly people know they're ugly? If I had something wrong with me you would tell me right?" I have perfect vision. My mother is looking at me as though I've lost my mind. I continue on, "What's wrong with me? I'm 21 years old and I've never had a boyfriend. If I'm not deformed please tell me what I'm doing wrong."
Am I going to end up 25 years old and have never been in a relationship? I'm not one of those boy-crazy girls or one of those females that thinks they need a man to be complete (thank god, otherwise I'd seriously be screwed) but Lord, you can only handle always being the third wheel, the odd man out, the dateless wonder, the lonely single freak.. for so long. I personally feel I've handled it well thus far.
Maybe it's just me? Maybe it's because some people don't know how to take me sometimes?I'm witty, blunt, and a little outspoken. I'm a little bit of a smart ass but it's all in good fun. I get a tiny bit rowdy when I drink too much and maybe I talk about my family too much, but that's only because I love them. I'm not very forgiving and I can't dance but I have good sides too. I love to hike and read. I'm willing to go anywhere, if I can afford a plane ticket then I will just make the rest of it up as I go. I'm great at encouraging people and getting them to conquer their fears even if it involves me getting on big scary roller coasters that I hate. I love trying new things and I can hold a conversation...
I'm not writing this to get a boyfriend (or even a date) but more so to figure out what I'm doing wrong. I just don't understand.
Thanks for any feedback.
